Monday, January 16, 2012

I have feelings for a new friend??(im a girl,she's a girl)?

HEEYY EVERYONE! :] WELL,IM 14 YEARS OLD.AND THIS NEW FRIEND OF MINE,MEL,IS 17.I'VE ALWAYS BEEN STRAIGHT,BUT LATELY IVE BEEN THINKING THAT I MIGHT BE BI :/ I DONT KNOW IF ITS A PHASE OR IF ITS THE REAL THING.WELL,IM CURRENTLY IN THE PHILIPPINES FOR SUMMER VACATION VISITING FAMILY AND HAVING FUN :] ABOUT 3 AND HALF WEEKS AGO WE WENT ON MY MOM'S FRIEND'S FRIEND'S YACHT.MY MOM'S FRIEND'S NAME IS JOANNA AND THE YACHT OWNER IS MICHELLE.AND MICHELLE HAD TWO DAUGHTERS..ONE OF THEM WAS MEL :] THERE WERE 2 BOYS AS WELL.I WAS INTRODUCED TO ALL OF THEM... SO WE WERE ALL HANGING OUT WHILE OUT MOTHERS WERE HANGING OUT.MEL WAS THE ONE WHO WAS TALKING TO ME THE MOST.AFTER THAT NIGHT,WE PLANNED TO HANG OUT AND GO BAR HOPPING AND CLUBBING SOON.IT NEVER FOLLOWED THRU BUT THEN MEL AND I STARTED TALKING ON FACEBOOK AND HOW WE SHOULD HANG AND STUFF.THERE WAS NO ATTRACTION AND I WAS JUST SO HAPPY TO HAVE MADE NEW FRIENDS HERE.UNTIL LAST NIGHT..WELL,LAST NIGHT...THERE WAS A FAMILY PARTY GOING ON AT MY UNCLES HOUSE..WHEN I ARRIVED WITH MY COUSINS..MEL AND HER MOM WAS THERE SITTING AT THE DINING TABLE WHILE THE ELDERS WERE DRINKING WINE AND EATING.I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE MEL CUZ WE'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO HANGING OUT BEFORE I FLEW BACK TO NYC (HOME) BUT IT NEVER FOLLOWED THRU.SO,I PULLED HER ASIDE AND ASKED HER IF SHE WANTED TO JUST HANGOUT IN THE LIVING ROOM AND GET AWAY FROM THE ELDERS..AND SHE AGREED.SO WE TALKED A BIT AND ASKED "HOW ARE YOU?" AND "WHATS NEW?" THEN SHE ASKED IF WE COULD GO UPSTAIRS SO THAT WE CAN TURN ON THE AC SINCE IT WAS SO HOT. SO YEAH,WE WENT UPSTAIRS AND SAT ON MY BED AND WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING FOR ABOUT 2-3 HOURS.WE TALKED ABOUT DREAMS AND GOALS IN LIFE,COLLEGE,HOBBIES,SPORTS,MUSIC,RELTIO… SHOWED HER MY FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK CUZ SHE ASKED,TALKED ABOUT FOOD,EVERYTHING!THEN SHE ALL OF A SUDDEN BROUGHT UP THE SUBJECT ABOUT GAYS,S,AND BIUALS...WE WERE TALKING ABOUT HOW THERE ARE MANY GAY GUYS HERE IN THE PHILIPPINES AND S AND IF YOURE GAY HERE THEN YOUD BE HATED..THATS WHAT SHE SAID.AND I TOLD HER THAT I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST IT AND ITS NOT A BIG DEAL IN THE US. UMM..I TOLD HER HOW THE U.S. IS BECUZ SHE'S GOING TO COLLEGE IN EITHER NYC OR LA. THEN SHE SAID THAT SHE HEARD THAT YOU GET PHASES IN COLLEGE. AND SHE'S LIKE "HA! I DONT WANNA BECOME A ..." SO WHEN THAT WAS OVER WE JUST TALKED AND TALKED.WE JUST CLICKED AND GOT ALONG SO WELL. IT WAS THE 2ND TIME WE HUNG OUT BUT I FEEL LIKE IVE KNOWN HER FOREVER...WHEN WE WERE SITTING ON MY BED I TOLD HER TO LIE DOWN CUZ SHE LOOKED TIRED AND SHE GOT A SMALL INJURY ON HER LEG..THERE WAS THIS MOMENT..WHERE I LOOKED AT HER AND SHE SMILED AND WE JUST LOOKED IN EACHOTHER'S EYES FOR LIKE 10 SECONDS AND I LOOKED AWAY AND LAUGHED.I SWEAR SHE HAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SMILE.AND SHE'S REALLY SWEET AND NICE.WHEN SHE LEFT..IT WAS WEIRD CUZ I COULDNT STOP THINKING ABOUT HER...WE WERE SUPPOSED TO HANG OUT TODAY BUT WE WERE BOTH BUSY WITH FAMILY :/ WE BOTH ARE EACHOTHER #3 FACEBOOK STALKER HAHAHA.I JUST..IDK WHAT TO DO.I THINK SHE MIGHT BE INTO ME A LITTLE BUT IS HESITANT? WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?AND IM MOVING TO THE PHILIPPINES IN A FEW MONTHS SO I GET TO HANG OUT WITH HER ALOT BY THEN..SHE'S LIKE PERFECT. HOW DO I KNOW SHE MIGHT BE INTERESTED IN ME?WHAT SHOULD I DO? I THINK THAT...I REALLY LIKE HER. :O

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